Another rant about fake people.

I hate fake people. You know the type. They tell you one thing then when it comes down to it, they backpedal. Ya know, if you're not going to do what you say, then don't fucking say it.

Srsly, WTF!?!?
I guess I am just strange in the fact that I expect people to tell me the truth. We are not kids anymore, it's time to grow up, put on your big girl panties and act like an adult. Fucking people.

So, don't trust what people tell you. It's probably a lie.

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Getting old

I always figured I would be dead by now. I never expected to live this long. I was thinking somewhere in my early 20's I would be gone. Now that I am in my 30's, I don't really know what to do with the rest of my life. I have hit a brick wall as far as progress goes. I really haven't done that much with my life the last few years.

I smoke, so I figured lung cancer but my doctor said my lungs were healthy. Surprising. Either that or a drug overdose. I used to take lots of drugs in my younger days. I drank a lot too. I also drove too fast, rode motorcycles and didn't wash my hands after a pee. I was a rebel. :-)

Enough of a rebel that I figured it would have killed me already. I think maybe that's why I have panic attacks and constant thoughts about death. I KNEW I wouldn't live this long, and now that I have, my brain doesn't know what to do from here. And now, I don't want to die. I didn't want to die when I was younger but it didn't bother me then just because I just always figured that I would. I had not intention of sticking around this long. I am glad that I have lived this long but it's odd.

So where do I go from here? Every decision that I have ever made has brought me to this exact point in time. Like the first time I ever skipped school. That decision brought me here, to this office, at this job. Had I not skipped that day, maybe I wouldn't have skipped all those other days and maybe I would have been a doctor or something far greater then I am now. Who knows?

Anyway, I guess my point is that now that I'm not dead, and I'm in my 30's, I am so completely and utterly lost and I don't know what to do about it. I think I am more lost then when I was a teen. At least when I was a teen I always had the future to look forward too. I don't have that now. I'm an adult, I can't look forward to growing up. Fuck.

rant

I will never again buy or sell something just because someone else thinks I should.

I am tired of being treated a certain way just because of the decisions I make.

I don't understand why anyone would want to join a motorcycle club. Too much drama.
The phrase "I'm not your bitch" does not apply anymore, because you are a bitch. Fuck that.


I hate people.

Men vs Women

Men vs Women

My comments in Blue

1. NAMES: If Laurie, Linda, Elizabeth and Barbara go out for lunch, they will call each other Laurie, Linda, Elizabeth and Barbara.

If Mark, Chris, Eric and Tom go out, they will affectionately refer to each other as Fat Boy, Godzilla, Peanut-Head and Scrappy. I call my friends by their names.

2. EATING OUT: When the bill arrives, Mark, Chris, Eric and Tom will each throw in $20, even though it’s only for $32.50. None of them will have anything smaller and none will actually admit they want change back. If I invite, I pay for it.

When the girls get their bill, out come the pocket calculators.

3. MONEY: A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs.

A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn’t need but it’s on sale.

Yeah I have to agree with that one.

4. BATHROOMS :A man has five items in his bathroom: a toothbrush, shaving cream, razor, a bar of soap, and a towel from the Marriott. Toothbrush, toothpaste, floss, shaving foam, razor, after shave, soap, wash cloth, towel, lotion, hair brush, hair gel and about 100 other things.

The average number of items in the typical woman’s bathroom is 337.

A man would not be able to identify most of these items. Yeah, I probably could.

5. ARGUMENTS: A woman has the last word in any argument.

Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument. Not true. Whom ever is correct has the last word.

6. CATS: Women love cats.

Men say they love cats, but when women aren’t looking, men kick cats. I like cats, dogs stink.

7. FUTURE: A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.

A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife. I worry about the future all the time, even before I got married.

8. SUCCESS: A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.

A successful woman is one who can find such a man.

I define success as the trust and love I get from my family.

9. MARRIAGE: A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn’t.

A man marries a woman expecting that she won’t change and she does. This I must agree with.

10. DRESSING UP: A woman will dress up to go shopping, water the plants, empty the garbage, answer the phone, read a book, and get the mail.

A man will dress up for weddings and funerals. And work.

11. NATURAL: Men wake up as good-looking as they went to bed. hahahah, on what planet?!?

Women somehow deteriorate during the night. true but so do men.

12. OFFSPRING: Ah, children.

A woman knows all about her children. She knows about dentist appointments and romances, best friends, favorite foods, secret fears and hopes and dreams.

A man is vaguely aware of some short people living in the house. I know everything about my kids. What kind of father doesn't!

13. THOUGHT FOR THE DAY: Any married man should forget his mistakes. There’s no use in two people remembering the same thing. hehe, true.

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